Friday, April 3, 2020

Fresh snow

April 3

If this had happened to me last year, I don’t know what I would have done.  My morning meditation is saving me, even though I did wake up several times in the night.  I stayed in the house all day except to go out for firewood.  I guess I’m just a bit numb. 

Thursday, April 2, 2020

Blue Tarps

April 2, 2020 

It’s supposed to storm. Enough already. I got groceries yesterday, and watched Netflix til I wanted to scream. Becca and I FaceTimed. She’s equally pissed off, because she was going to come with me for the first two weeks of my trip.

I did a gel print on toned paper with acrylic and then drew with my Zebra brush pen and went in with gouache.  Again, I took it into Procreate.  

International Fake Journal Month Day One April1, 2020

This year, I had NO IDEA what to do for my fake journal.  At a time when the world is in crisis, and life feels heavy and stressful, I hope that "fake" me finds solace within herself and inspires resilience and strength for others.
Fake me is the same character as last year.  18 yr-old Noreen, (no longer a troubled teen) was recently hired by a travel magazine to blog and sketch in Chiapas, Mexico during the month of June.  Because of the pandemic, she has been forced to self-isolate and her contract has been postponed indefinitely.

April 1, 2020

I'm beyond pissed.  No job, no trip, no life.  I'm house sitting for an artists and have been forced to remain here indefinitely.  She can't get home and I have nowhere to go. At least there are lots of windows in her studio.  I'm out here now.  I did a one line drawing and then went in with watercolour, but it sucked. I went took it to procreate to save it. 

Here's the view and the before...

Tuesday, April 30, 2019

Tuesday Session - Envisioning my Future

Dr. E was so happy for me.  Today, we talked about how I have found a voice through my art.  I told her how I hadn't felt vibratey for a while.  It doesn't mean that I don't feel angry, or sad, or panicky... it's just that somehow, she's helped me get it out so I don't get so overwhelmed.  

We talked about my summer plans for teaching at the Forest School.  We talked about me maybe taking a yoga class, or trying a daily meditation practice to help me keep grounded.  She encouraged me to keep helping Jake with his art and to test drive some lesson plans on him. 

We did an envisioning exercise, looking at yesterday's drawing.  She asked me to draw what I was feeling about going to Thunderbay to teach art to kids.  I asked her to put on that New Age calming music and let me use the Posca markers and watercolour.  I went in finished outlining with the Pentel brushpen.   

When I finished, Dr. E asked how I was feeling.  Without thinking, I said hopeful.  She asked if she could hug me.  I said yes. That hug felt like today's picture.

Monday, April 29, 2019

Monday Session - I got a job!

I'm freaking out.  Mrs. Hildebrand put my name forward as one of the students she recommended to travel to Thunderbay to be a junior art instructor at The Forest School.  She talked with Dr. E and everything is set for a summer job teaching art!

This is where I'll be going.  It's 45 minutes outside of Thunderbay and it's for 3 weeks this summer.  I can't believe it.  I'll be getting paid to do art.  I have a job.  I feel like I won the 649.

This is where I'll be going.  They sent a picture of the view from the school.  Of course, it'll look a whole lot different in July.  I did it as a blind drawing.  They also have a guest instructor coming to teach yoga and meditation, and I can go to those classes for free.

Sunday, April 28, 2019

Weekend collage

 I started a collage yesterday on one page, then continued it today.  I kind of like it.  I started to think of my super hero self and my super power to change into a bird.  There's a #putabirdonit challenge on Instagram and I kind of wanted to post something.  So that's what I did.  I put a bird on it. When I started painting the yellow, I got that hopeful feeling again.  Maybe I'm not such a basket case loser as I thought.   I actually posted it on my Instagram.  Wait'll Dr. E hears that I got a comment from someone who said my image was powerful.  

Friday, April 26, 2019

Friday Session - Drawing with Jake

When I got home yesterday after school, Jake was waiting on my front steps.  When he saw me come around the corner, he raced to greet me on the street to show me his new sketchbook.  His dad gave it to him for his Saturday classes at the WAG.  He said he was scared to wreck it.  I told him that I thought that was a very common fear, and the sooner he got over it, the better his art would become. In fact, we googled it and the word for fear of the blank page is VACANSOPAPUROSOPHOBIA.  I suggested he write that on his first page for a little art joke with himself.  We sat down on my front porch and I pulled out my sketchbook and fountain pen.  

I remembered a great exercise I saw online for freeing up drawing and imagination.  It was perfect for Jake and we did it together.  We looked down at my cracked sidewalk at the bottom of the steps..  I got him to draw the cracks on a page with my fountain pen.  I did the same in my book.  Then we made up drawings from the lines. He was pretty impressed with my waterbrush. It was really great to watch how much fun he had watching the ink run.

I told Dr. E about Jake’s art lesson, and again she asked me if I had ever thought of teaching art to kids.  I told her that it would be my dream job.  She suggested since I was looking for summer work that I check out Parks and Rec and see if there was anything remotely to do with teaching art.  I’m not going to get my hopes up, but I’m sure going to check it out.